Using knees as a form of humiliation.

Dignity. This word describes a fantastic affect of Alexander Technique to practicioners. It restores our dignity. Standing upright is not just a phisical experience. It`s much deeper process, is an act of reconnection with ourselves and the universe. This little „click” thing above the top of our head and beneath our feets makes a kind of positive suspention and locates us in context of the world. As Kate Kelly mentioned in his book „Before the curtain opens – Alexander Technique in Actor`s Life” –

„First of all, you have to accept that you are balancing on a rotating planet and that, whether you know it or not, you are never standing still.”

So there is a myriad mikroscales movements in our body that makes an adjustment to the WHOLESNESS (gravity, circulation of fluids in our body etc.) It’s interesting look at our relations to space, distance and general circumstances. Neighborhood, surroundings, enviroment. Man as a human being, man as an object, people as a set of elements. When I’m just thinking about standing, it is a source of pride. We are able to resist the force of gravity, we can overcoming space, it is our strength.

On the other hand I’d like to share with you my past thoughts experience about bending, kneeling, downwards things. For me it was often an expierience of shame, I felt it so subconsciously. Tying a shoe, raising a coin found on the street, going to sleep. The way, I was thinking about it, was related to submission and a sort of humiliation. Really, such as things were existed in my mind, in my patterns of thinking, so I was avoid just to do it easiest way. It was a challenge, so I was makeing some strategies. I played like an actor in my life, that I did this things, to explain to myslef that I could do them! Awesome!

I had the impression that every descent downwards highlighted my weaknesses, and the whole world was just waiting to watch me in these moments. The same was true for stopping. After all, I had to rush somewhere, otherwise, I will be conspicuous and for what? Problems with going to sleep and falling asleep were associated with another thinking trap. Namely, I considered sleep to be something unnecessary and wasting time. Opposing to this I tried to prove myself that I don’t need to sleep! Unbelievable!

In the standing position, however, I did not see how much I slouch, which certainly did not look so dignity. How and when it changed exactly I have no idea, but since I work with Alexander Technique I just realized it. Regards to you and your stories 🙂

Next evolutionary step?

„To know when we are wrong is all that we shall ever know in this world.”

F.M ALEXANDER

Take a look at this picture above. It was made during my workshops. I was asking the participant just to stand together in the line, to listen about next excerscise-game. One girl hold his neck with a hand, maybe she is nervous, or maybe his neck is painful or she is confused of something, probably she is not aware of it. As well as the next two persons who are just leaning forward and slumped down. They think this is their normal standing position. It’s harmful it’s unhealthy, it’s preposterous!

Can Alexander Technique be next evolutionary step as F.M considered? Maybe not by itself, but we can provide that this method could contribute to this. What is next evolutionary step? For example fantasy like this: People standing straight upright, there is no weird tension on his faces, just pure emotions. True appearing emotions like in child faces. There are open, ready to initiate and to play with others. They look around with dignity, poise and curiosity. The health and mental diseases leave our bodies with an every year forward. Joy of work replaces cult of work. We are not volnerable but sensitive and with emphathy we understand diffrent points of view, cause we listen to each other. We express ourselves precisely. There is no spam stuff in rooms we exist. We reconnect in the future which turns out to be the present.

Overcoming our inability to connect has to be done. What abilites to reconnect we have? Eye contact, smell contact, touch contact, probably much more as we know already, there is a lot of senses. Rising up from slumped body. It is so hard as so simple.

If we will even just able to stand upright with pleasure, joy, fluidity, the source of what, it will be for us? What development reserves are to discover? Changing people from carriers of problems to carriers of ideas. What a divine gift is that? A simple leverage to next level. Puzzle thinking, circumstances as a riddle, a playground world.

We need some space for that journey so reduce excess, replace lack and just go!

Paralell alternative

Uiliuili bench by Piotr Żuraw

„My work is an excercise in finding out what thinking is.” – Frederick Matthias Alexander

When I think about Alexander Technique it comes to my mind just simply reflection of one word – THINKING. Is Alexander Technique about thinking? Definetly, if we gave yourself a time and space. Using the Inhibition. Say STOP to yourself and you get paralell alternative.

This is the moment when the child`s play begin. You can do everything, there is no limitation so you can make decisions and mistakes, change a path and to try again, and again without frustration but with having fun. What’s about our common sense? There is a common sense but on the edge of ourrselves. Are we yet there? In majority no, but we love limit ourselves. Limitations are imitations of us. Leave it at least for a moment. We are fuller as we THINK, no as we worry.

So Alexander Technique is for me an essential approach to life, a smile to the circumstances, a new challenge, searching for solutions, change, freedom, play, joy, space, and more: a choice, a method, a technique, a skill, a competence, an ability, consciousness, mentality, stillness, dekompression, a guide, a process and this is my THINKING. Thanks to so many applications of Alexander Technique exist a whole spectrum of it’s definitions. And that’s great strength of this method. There is a lot of paralell options.

You have a choice to go not as usual. Which path you’ll go this time? Stay openminded 😉

I was biting my nails

„Sadly I think most nail-biters would like to stop, but don’t know how to. If you can’t stop a habit, then it is govering you.” – Peter Nobes (Mindfulness in 3D)

Everything started close here. At my fingertips. I decided to get rid of this habit. I was married and I had a job for few years, but I was still at school as I noticed, standing under the blackboard on mathematics. I was terrified, I was shamed, I didn`t know what to do. I was shocked, tensed and feel stupid. It was one of the reason, why I was biting my nails. My parents was asking “don’t bite you nails please”, but my father was biting them also, so I was. Then I read that this is a sign of intelligent people so I was thought it was fine an so on.

I was 27, and I decided to stop it, I was an adult and I shamed that I shame to my fingers with cracked nails in the contact with other people. Many times I had an impression that they are looking at my hands with pity. Stare or look surreptiously.

It cheated on me. That I was still not so confident as I would like to be. I was cheating on myself. Like an Achilles heel it reminded me to shrink my hands in company.

I was tired of pretending to be “normal”, “calm”, “confident”. It just didn`t work anymore. I wanted to be happy for real.

The psychological and life experience background of the moment is bigger, more complicated and not so simple. But at the end of my reflections it was just about my nails and the blackboard on mathematics.

Anyway a try to stopping biting nails, the D E C I S I O N, I`ve made, started a process of mindful changes that lead me to faceing myself and 3 years later accidentally it droped me at the field of Alexander Technique to proof that this constructive and conscious process never ends.

Introducing myself

Hi, my name is Maciej Kowalczyk I live in Poland and I`m a professional actor of Contemporary Theatre in Wroclaw. This blog is dedicated to one of my passion which is Alexander Technique.

I have been working with people for more than a few years. The profession of an actor requires searching in many fields. It gives you the opportunity to experience different sensibilities, to sense human behavior and teaches how to deal with them. Being open, being conscious, being flexible and creative is the basis for functioning in this profession.

By working in the theater and organizing the intergenerational workshops, I learned how to listen and understand to people, how to watch them carefully, how to be patient and how to be forgiving. During those few years I managed to change my self-conscious attitude from an embarrassed, withdrawn boyfriend, into a confident, empathetic and positively oriented man to people and the world. I wish to share my experience with others additionally on the field of Alexander Technique, which is also contributed to these good changes.